Stop fearing and live your life


If you want to eliminate fear out of your life, the simplest way to do so is talk to a kid.  Kids have no fear to a degree and I guess that’s what gets them in trouble at times. But think of this, what do you have the greatest memories from and you more intense moments? Your childhood right? Think of all the careless, carefree things you did without hesitation when you were young? What kind of feelings did it give you then and what feeling does it give you now just thinking about it?

My kids do just that for me.  Not only do they bring me back in time, but they say to me, mom stop worrying just do it. So little by little I am.  Yesterday though I missed an opportunity of a life time.  I had the chance to go with both my sons(13 and 14) on a flight lesson over Piseco Lake in NY. Why? Because I was afraid.  That fear slighted me of something so amazing. How stupid can I be??? 

I guess I can’t beat myself up too much. Baby steps right? I fly high on the swings with them, I race on bicycles with them, we play manhunt at night, and we tell spooky stories by the fire.  I’m getting those feelings back and I feel like I’m starting life all over again. What a feeling!!!

Swing high on that swing my friends. Go for that rush you once had when you were younger.  You never know if you’ll get that opportunity again.  

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Sunday drive in upstate NY


Yesterday was Easter and for the first time Mike and I decided to go out for dinner and just hang by ourselves. The boys were with their father on their way down to Florida. I’m so happy for them! First vacation he has ever taken them on. Anyway, I caught what Matt is just getting over. Feels like the flu or something viral as the doc called it. Horrible. So that just summed up my day but we made the most of it.

We laid low, ate dinner at Lanzi’s on the Lake. Sacandaga Lake to be exact. It was a relaxing time and great food.

I didn’t get any pics from the scenery or what we ate because I wasn’t feeling too hot but I did get some pics of the sunset that I was able to get on our drive home.

I hope you all had a great holiday in spite of all the craziness that is taking place in this world that we live in.

Keep it simple and it’ll stay real.

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Self Sabotage, No Money but Wants Mo Money..it can be done


I feel like my wheels are always spinning.  I seem to never get out of this vicious cycle of feeling poor. I am always asking myself, where in the world does my money go? Out the window that’s where. I spend it foolishly on nonsense and that’s about to end! 

So I found this free budget app called Daily Budget.  (No this isn’t an advertisement for them). It has a little piggy bank  as its icon and I found it very simple to use.

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First though I have a planner that I buy from Walmart every year to keep my appointments, subbing jobs, and ahh yes of course my bills in.  The planner cost $8 (if that)and without it I’d be lost.  It doesn’t have any bells or whistles. It’s just easy to follow because it has a month at a view glance which is great because you can see everything coming up right in front of you.

I love the idea of putting stickers in here or using bright colored markers but in reality I don’t have the time right now. That’s all a part of my bigger picture and my time management adventure that I’ll be tackling soon.

Sorry to cut this post short so for now I’m going to leave you with this but at the end of the week I’ll update you on my budgeting progress!!

Coffee, thinking, and thought for the day


Do what makes YOU happy…….

This might seem like a simple statement that people tend to think is so easy to accomplish but it goes a lot deeper, for me anyway.

Day 3 and I am still in my positive mode. I love it. I look at everything and everyone differently. It doesn’t mean that once in a while I might get off track but at least I am aware of it.

I’m staying focused on what my goals are.

I am taking people for what they are worth and throwing compassion into the mix as well.

I’m not running from finding my solutions to my problems.

I am just taking it day by day and I am not going to feel guilty about being simple or happy.

I finished up my last semester in December and just found out I made the Dean’s list again. I think my GPA is 3.28. Pretty sure that’s it. I have one class to finish up my associates and I am done!!!! I’ll be taking that probably in the next few months or whenever I can find a quick mini session to do it in.

Anyway, the key here is to stay focused and organized. You truly have to break things down to a simpler form and tackle whatever it is step by step and finish what you set out on accomplishing.

For me I just want to accomplish finding true peace and happiness which I think come hand in hand. I think people think you need material resources to find that peace and happiness but that is so not true. Getting rid of the material things around me and eliminating the stuff as well as people who are preventing me to do that is what is making me happy.

The first question you have to ask is; what makes you happy? I had to ask myself this question over and over again until I figured it out. For me it’s simple, the first answer is spending time with my family and doing for them. I can go on and on into the details and everything else that follows but I’m just trying to get my message across for those of you who might need direction.

Don’t feel guilty or bad about what makes you happy. I felt like my whole life I tried to conform to what everyone else thought the definition of happy should be and finally in my 40’sm, I figured it out what it is that I needed to be happy. Better late than never right? lol

This post might seem all over the board but once I figure out the pattern on how I want to get my messages across everything will fall into place a little bit better.

Enjoy the day everyone. I have to get mine started!!