It’s Friday and it’s been a long week. The kids are ready for a vacation and so are we.
I haven’t slept the past few nights because my mind has been going nonstop. I have taxes left to do besides our own. I’ve been subbing everyday and it snowed again last night lol. Yes snow in upstate NY one more time.
It’s time to regroup and get with the program. The key is to get back on track. Stay focused and gave a purpose in life. Am I saying this for you or me? Today it’s a little bit of both.
Keep moving. If I can so can you.
I love Googling quotes and finding ones like this. It’s simple and yet couldn’t be more true. Love and appreciate the little things in life like your beating heart. Once you recognize this gift, everything else will come a little bit easier.
I just scrolled back to a blog post I did two years ago this coming March and I am happy to say I feel accomplished. It’s not that I accomplished anything major but I did continue on with my blog and I’m still here today. So yes it’s possible to finish and continue what you started. At times I feel like I can’t but that two year old post just confirmed and reassured me as well as gave me the confidence to keep going and so can you!! Never give up! Anything is possible. That two year old post is found under “My Story” section. Very interesting. Wow. It’s amazing to go back and see what happened through the years. Good, bad, or ordinary it’s interesting to see how life truly evolves.
Standing on the outside looking in, for the most part people look like they have it together. I look basically normal on the outside and live a pretty basic life but there are days that are not so ordinary at all.
I just want to share my story if anyone is listening or can even relate to my trials and tribulations.
My blog varies ranges from everything to my current mood to my latest decoration epiphanies.
Currently I am obsessed with finishing my coffee bar before I go into surgery on the 26th of this mon(March 2015). Yup neck surgery. Laminectomy to be exact. C3 to C6. Bare with me when I blab about that as well.
That’s it for now.
I hope you enjoy it!
All I want for this Christmas is peace. Plain and simple. Peace within the current relationship I am in now. That’s it. I’m giving him one more chance. He agreed that he will seek help for his anger and other issues he has going on and I am going to go with that for now only because it is Christmas.
I am a domestic violence survivor and I refuse to be a survivor again. I don’t want to go through what I went through before. I refuse to let my kids witness any form of abuse whatsoever. I went through physical, verbal, and mental abuse for 20 years and I am not going allow it again. I have been with him for 1 year now and putting it bluntly I don’t have the time to waste on worrying every second of my life. This is it. He has never hit me but the verbal aspect of it is debilitating at times. I’m not stupid or dependent on others. I just don’t walk away easily and give people the benefit of the doubt too much sometimes.
“He” is on notice so I am taking this minute by minute. He went through something traumatic at Christmas time when he was younger but that is no excuse because so did I and I never but the blame on anything or anyone else for my actions so he shouldn’t either.
Today is the day before Christmas eve. This is weighing heavily on my mind and heart. I hope my decision is right by giving him this last chance. If not, I’m out. No ifs, ands, or buts.
Please, please, please just give me this one Christmas miracle that all will go well. So far since our discussion last Friday it has been going okay but I’m at my wits end taking it min by min. I need peace.