I know the answer

It’s been one thing after another. My mom died in August, my house caught fire on Christmas Eve, my boyfriend’s grandmother has cancer, and now I have to put our dog down who we just found out she has cancer. Oh and I have to go for a stress test, echocardiogram tomorrow because my ekg was off the charts. But yet, time after time I remain optimistic and keep saying everything happens for a reason. What is the reason? I think I know what I have to do to stop the universe from biting me in the ass. It is time to change my thinking. I am not necessarily doing anything wrong but it is the thought of going through with the potential things I have in mind to do.

It has to stop. I have to change. I can’t get back what has already happened and I can’t stop the inevitable, but from here on in I can make a conscious effort to think and do right.

If I can’t fix the problem that provokes me to think and want to do whatever it is, then I have to make a change on that as well. I’m tired, my heart is tired, my head is tired. I don’t want my life to be so tiring anymore. I want calm. I want peace and for things to go smoothly. I am not asking for anything more than I have, I just need a break from the bad that keeps happening. Please God give me that break.


Author: Jeana

This is me. I'm a mom, a sister, a daughter, and friend. At times and MOST of the time I live an ordinary life. I love my family and I'm trying to learn how to love myself. It's taking 46 years but I'm getting there lol. I'm still learning how to blog and figure out what kind of audience I'm trying to appeal to but I find myself randomly posting about anything and everything, which is okay I guess. I love being a homebody. I swear there's no greater peace then enjoying your home and its surroundings which is why blogging is ideal for someone like me because it makes me realize there is a whole big world out there to explore. The best part of that is I can do it right from the comforts of my home! I hope you enjoy my site and if there's anything you'd like to comment on, feel free to hit me up.

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